reckless blogging
omg...i'm an idiot...who woulda thought people would actually read this (aside from Lily)? For the past week I couldn't check and see the comments on this blog...till now O.o
Yeah even though this damned computer in Hong Kong has all chinese characters on it...I still managed to delete my love entry. Like I know anything about love to begin with...but it was all in the past. Silly me. Time to get annonymous >_< i hate censoring my blogs argh. But reckless blogging gets me in trouble every single time...I am just a dolt who will never learn her lesson. NOT fluffy about that!
"fluffy":(adj.)brittish slang for happy, pleased. I love it when Judi uses it because she is very un-girly and it makes me laugh to hear her say something with such feminine undertones as "fluffy" hehehe.
Anyways..back to my twisted conceptions of love. I truly believe that only certain people are destined/capable of falling in love...people who take risks, are secure in themselves and selfless. I think a lot of people think they are in love, have been in love...or are in love but are only experiencing what they think is love...a diluted delusion. I, myself, don't know if I'm capable oif being in love. I've been very happy in relationships before...they've been really fun (Right Ray? haha) but to meet that person you truly connect with and could spend the rest of your life with? It's a matter of timing, location, fate, personality, relationship status....so many things factor into it that it makes my head spin.
Sure, when it happens you know right? When it happens, all the pieces of the puzzle just...fit. so they say. I guess the reason I find it so unfathomable is that in my minimal experiences and taste of life, nothing comes without hard work. Things never *fall into place* the way you'd like it to...well no some things do, but nothing so complicated, nothing with the full term implications of a lifetime commitment....it blows my mind just imagining myself with the same person for the next 50-70 years(God willing)
Yeah even though this damned computer in Hong Kong has all chinese characters on it...I still managed to delete my love entry. Like I know anything about love to begin with...but it was all in the past. Silly me. Time to get annonymous >_< i hate censoring my blogs argh. But reckless blogging gets me in trouble every single time...I am just a dolt who will never learn her lesson. NOT fluffy about that!
"fluffy":(adj.)brittish slang for happy, pleased. I love it when Judi uses it because she is very un-girly and it makes me laugh to hear her say something with such feminine undertones as "fluffy" hehehe.
Anyways..back to my twisted conceptions of love. I truly believe that only certain people are destined/capable of falling in love...people who take risks, are secure in themselves and selfless. I think a lot of people think they are in love, have been in love...or are in love but are only experiencing what they think is love...a diluted delusion. I, myself, don't know if I'm capable oif being in love. I've been very happy in relationships before...they've been really fun (Right Ray? haha) but to meet that person you truly connect with and could spend the rest of your life with? It's a matter of timing, location, fate, personality, relationship status....so many things factor into it that it makes my head spin.
Sure, when it happens you know right? When it happens, all the pieces of the puzzle just...fit. so they say. I guess the reason I find it so unfathomable is that in my minimal experiences and taste of life, nothing comes without hard work. Things never *fall into place* the way you'd like it to...well no some things do, but nothing so complicated, nothing with the full term implications of a lifetime commitment....it blows my mind just imagining myself with the same person for the next 50-70 years(God willing)
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